Despair to Promise – Never Give Up!

“He (God) heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds [healing their pain and comforting their sorrow].”                Psalm 147:3 (AMP)

Have you ever been in a place where your own personal world seems hopeless and depression and despair are knocking, well thrashing at your door? Maybe even thoughts or plans of suicide? There is nothing to be ashamed of. Loads of people have been there. I have been there.

BUT …. There Is Always Hope!

I have been there at 2 points in my life. Each time was because of unresolved issues and internal pain that severely clouded my thought processes and judgments about my life. I didn’t have rose coloured glasses on, I had on extremely dark sunglasses that seemed to block out almost every drop of the light of hope.

Can you relate?

If not, you are very blessed but I encourage you to read on. This may just help you encourage someone else who is in the middle of their dark night. If you can relate, I pray this encourages you to press on and to know that you are not alone.

A Little Background.

The second time I got to this point, I honestly thought I was going mad – literally. I couldn’t hold my emotions together, I was completely paranoid, my self-esteem was nonexistent and to top it off, I did not understand that God loved me ….. mess and all. An amazing pastor led me in the right direction and helped me greatly. He actually saved my life. However, in the process, I got a WHOLE lot more than I bargained for. These insights certainly made sense of why I felt the way I did and why I perceived the world in the wrong way that I did.

Needless to say, the devastation threatened to destroy me. I had never in my life experienced this searing pain and my heart honestly thought it had just died. I began planning. A couple more sessions passed and I had had enough. No more. I couldn’t take it.

BUT GOD!!

Man did He have other plans. Did He enjoy watching me writhe in pain? No, but He knew the freedom, the breakthrough and the anointing to help others that would eventually come.

I was feeling really sick and put it down to what I was going through. Nope. I was pregnant. What the? The Lord’s timing is always perfect. He knew that I would never commit suicide while I was holding another life in my womb. He outsmarted me once again.

I attended sessions for a couple more months and got a lot of release and healing.

Years Later … Revelation Comes. (Hindsight is a wonderful thing)

Today I can say that the pain has almost completely ceased and I can talk about the situations without anger, resentment or bitterness. God has certainly used me to help many others up until this very day.

As I was getting ready in my usual routine this morning, God dropped this revelation into my heart:

The child that I was pregnant with at the time was a prophetic sign of what was to come.

We had been prophesied over that we were going to have a girl – 3 boys ago. This is the only baby I found out the gender for. When I found out that he was a boy, I wailed. Not because he was a boy, but because if I wanted the promised girl, it meant I had to do pregnancy and labour again – both of which I did not do well. Sorry husband.

I moved on and Joshua came into the world.

We Can Take The Land!

I LOVE the story of Joshua and Caleb in the Bible in Numbers 13.

Numbers 13:31 (NLT) says,

“Let’s go at once to take the land,” he said. “We can certainly conquer it!”

Out of the 10 spies, Joshua and Caleb were the only ones that brought back a report of hope and victory. The other 8 only brought back a report of fear and defeat. If you know the story, every single person in that generation died (and they estimate that there were about 2 million people) …. except Joshua and Caleb. BECAUSE they brought back a good report and believed the Lord when He told them they could go get it, they were the only ones that were allowed to go into the promised land out of the generation that was rescued from the persecution of the Egyptians.

God was giving me a prophetic sign that I would indeed go and take the land, and that I would certainly conquer it. He was saying, “It’s OK. I’ve got you. We’ll work through this. You will bring Me back a good report and together we will take the land and conquer it. You have a great purpose and together we will fulfil it.”

Today, I can honestly say that I am seeing that come to pass. I now have 2 beautiful daughters as well and 4 incredible sons. I live a life alongside Jesus and the spirit realm and see amazing miracles almost everyday.

There is hope …. and His Name is Jesus!

NEVER GIVE UP!

The second part of John 10:10 says “… I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance [to the full, till it overflows].”

This really is for YOU too! There is Light at the end of the tunnel and His Name is Jesus. He IS the Light of the world. He can shine His incredibly light into ALL of your dark places and heal your very soul. Talk to Him about your pain. Hold nothing back, He can take it. It is a process so don’t rush it. Ask Him to help you and I can guarantee you, He will.

As always, I would love to hear your experiences and thoughts. As this is a sensitive and often painful topic, please be mindful of the comments you share. If you would like prayer, drop a comment below or email me via the contact form and I’ll pray with you. If you know of anyone that this post could help, please share it with them. To encourage others is the cry of my heart.

May the God of great peace surround you today.

An important note: PLEASE don’t ever judge anyone who has gone through or who is contemplating suicide. Unless you have walked it yourself or with someone very close to you, it’s best that you keep your opinions to yourself. I say this grace towards you. Some of the worst things you can say are: ‘Be more grateful for what you have’, ‘Take a pill and everything will be fine’, ‘think positive thoughts’, ‘so many others have it way worse than you’, and my own personal favourite …… ‘You just need to get over it’. Seriously, if getting out of depression was this simple, don’t you think that it would be eradicated altogether? These precious ones need grace, love and mercy, but they mainly need prayer. Pray for them and if it’s you, get people to pray for you, seek help, and most importantly, don’t stay hidden. Jesus came to give you abundant life, and it is available ….. TO EVERYONE!

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